Double espresso and a pack of cigarettes

I started this year coming out of a long term relationship. 3-years, engaged, and failure was a bit much for me. I was also working a ridiculous schedule of 9:30 to 10. I normally have a tough time waking up in the morning, so having a schedule like that made it even tougher. Broken hearted and exhausted from work, I had decided to make some life altering changes. All the usuals.. Eat right, start my projects, get in shape, save money, blah blah blah.

But come May, my schedule had changed. I had made minimal progress on my new life and attitude. I was having so much fun going out, meeting people and just being a clown. I was trying to be responsible for so long that as soon as I didn’t have any responsibilities, I started feeling good about myself and self-development took a back seat to just chilling.

It’s true that I’m not getting any younger. I feel pressure to get things going before I become one of those 30 year olds living in my moms basement just fucking around. But I hadn’t had rest in so long that i decided that I’m taking a mental vacation for the next few months. I’m not going to worry about saving money, getting cancer from smoking, furthering my prospects. THIS is development. Chillin, worry free. When else can I call a time-out on life? never. And I’m taking the opportunity when I can.

Lunch time is social time here at my office. People ask each other to lunch to build rapport, make friends and hang. With my new found attitude, I’ve been taking my breaks at a cafe for an hour just smoking my cigarettes with a double espresso, trouble and worry free, without pressure or stress, without thoughts. It’s really fanastic.

Korea’s a great place for life-time-outs 🙂 highly recommended!

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2 thoughts on “Double espresso and a pack of cigarettes

  1. Edward A. says:

    I completely agree with you Keith! These months have been the best in my life because I had that relaxed attitude. I don´t come from a break up, and I don´t live in South Korea either. But I was in a job that turned from dreamed job to nightmare, working from 8 to 8 in a regular basis, and although it seemed like the right thing to do in order to achieve my goals it was killing me, I was starting to feel apathy for my job, for my life. So I decided to forget about everything else for a while, to relax and contemplate my life without making a specific plan or goal, just contemplate without worrying…man it´s hard to do it! We learn to worry about everything.

    Anyway, everything is much better now, I ended up getting a new job without even having to look for it, the offer came to me. I´m still contemplating, enjoying and making plans for the future, but as you said, self development can wait for a while. Great post!

  2. Chris de Vera says:

    May i ask when you started smoking? Did you smoke even when you were in America or just when you started living in Korea? It would also be interesting if you made a video or post about the smoking culture in Korea.

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